I'm A Lucky Lady!!!!!!

Today I looked at my kids and thought to myself, what did I ever do in my life to get 3 of the most amzing children....oh yeah and a pretty good husband too : ) Today the boys were playing with Jianna and it was just so nice to hear them laughing and running around, it makes me very happy to see that Jianna has bonded with her brothers and they with her....It just confirms it, Jia was so meant for this family..I can't believe it, 3 months ago she was not here with us...She just feels like she has always been with us....I could not imagine life without her...The way she has taken to her new home, surroundings , family....I just find myself looking up to her....she has gone through so many changes in the past 3 months, and she is just such a trooper, she just goes with the flow, and she tries everything...and is such a happy ,sweet little girl....She adores her brothers, and LOVES her Daddy and when she looks at me , I just have to pinch myself, I still can't believe shes ours...I'm just soooo in Love with my family....and no I'm not PMS-ing those days are over for me, I'm just taking this time to smell the roses, and boy am I lucky.....

P.S. now Tomorrow, I might be singing a different tune : )

Carmen

OUR JIANNA'S BIRTHDAY

My Sweet Jianna

What can I say, you are all that was missing from my life, you have completed our family and you were sooooo worth the wait! I woke up today so happy , my baby is 2 years old...but I must admit, I also felt a little sad...because I know that out there there is a women who on this day, gave her little girl away....I wonder if she is thinking of you , if she misses you, if she wonders about you....I wonder if she is okay....if she is sad..if she tries to imaganie what you look like ....I wish I could give her a hug, and tell her that your okay, and that I thank her for giving you the gift of life, I wish that I could tell her that I will always be there for you and that I will never speak badly of her, I wish that I could show her how much you have grown, and how beautiful you are, I wish she could see you dance, sing and smile .... I want her to know that I will always tell you that there are "2" women who love you sooo much, one gave you the gift of life and the other was lucky enough to see you live it....I thank her so very much for Loving you so much so that she gave you a chance , even if it meant that she would have to live her life "wondering" , not knowing....wishing....

It angers me when those who think they know everything, judge the Chinese people for giving up their children...imagine how it would feel if you were told that you could only have one child, imagine how you would feel if you were fined for having a 2nd child, imagine how it would feel to have a baby grow inside of you , feel her kick , give birth to her and then let her go, just because you were not ALLOWED to keep her....Imagine how awful that must feel....then judge.....

I am so greatful for my Daughter, And I will never take her for granted, and I will always have respect for the women who carried her, gave birth to her and gave her a chance ....and on this day , our daughters birthday, there will alaways be "2" women who Love this amazing , beautiful girl named Jianna....

So many People Love you my Jianna
Happy Birthday

Mikes B'day Surprise!

Yesterday was Mikes Birthday so Dante took him to work with him at the Colbert Report....Mike has been wanting to meet Jon Stewart, so Dante Surprise Mike and Steven and took them to meet Jon Stewart...Jon was so nice to the boys , he even took a photo with them....Thanks Jon....The boys Love that their father works on Television, because they get to meet some pretty amazing people.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SWEET MICHAEL!

Today I woke Up and realized, oh no! my baby is 15 years old today....when did that happen??? My Sweet Michael, what can I say , I am so proud of you , I am so lucky to have 2 of the sweetest boys for sons....Michael you are growing up to be such an amazing young man....You remind me so much of myself, your funny, kind, good hearted person, and such a cutie! You have overcome so much....Something we both have in common, is that we a re both dyslexic...and I am so proud of you for doing not only so well in school , but also making it onto the Honor Roll....You never stop trying , you always do your best and you never let your dyslexia bring you down....I have seen you sit at the table for hours and hours studying for test....when you don't understand something, y our never embarrassed to ask for help , I on the otherhand, was always so ashamed and never asked for help. but you are so proud and you don't care what others think and because of that , you have done so well not only in school but in life in general...I am your biggest fan, and I have and will continue to learn so much from you my son...its because of the way you are, that I now allow MYSELF to put MY head up high...I now no longer keep my dyslexia a secret, heck if Mike can do it , well so can his Mom : ) I can only hope, that I am able to teach you as much as you have taught me, you make me a better person, you make me proud, you make me happy and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for the Love you show me everyday of your life, thank you son....And Mike, I know that one day your gonna make one heck of a film maker....just remember, when your up there getting your 1st award....and you hear some crazy lady crying in the audience, that will just be me ....crying tears of joy....

Love you
Mom and Dad

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OUR SWEET STEVEN!!!!

Today Is our stevens Birthday! I can't believe it, my baby boy is 10 years old....Steven will forever hold a very speacial place in my heart....before I had steven, I had 2 misscarriages, I thought for sure that I would never give birth to another child again....than just when u thought there was no more hope, BAM! here came steven....Now anyone who knows Our Steven knows that he is a strong minded, determined, does not give up type of boy! He's my "ROCK" and we always say " steven was a fighter in my tummy, and he was determined to see the world" So Happy Birthday My Sweet little Boy! I am so Happy that your in Our Lives....You have taught me to never give up....for if I had, I would not have you....I Love You

Your Proud Mommy

Jianna's Trip To Maine!

This week we were invited to our wonderul friend Nadines Parents Lake House for a few days....What Can I say Nadines Family are such beautiful people, they treated us as if we were family, they were so nice to Mike, Steven and Jia....Mike and Steven went tubing for the first time...Nadines Brother Chris also took my boys out on the boat , poor steven wanted so badly to catch a fish,....but, No fish : ( Nadines Dad took us out on his boat and Jianna had so much fun...thanks Grandpa White.....We even had a cozy fire outside one night....Nadines Mom, on the first day took mike and steven out to kyack....and Dan even went out and joined in the fun....And we can't forget sweet Moose...Jia Liked Moose alot! (Moose is nadine and Matts Dog) It was so Beautiful to be on the Lake...and with such wonderful people....so Thank you again Grandpa and Grandma White...Nadine and Matt and the rest of the gang!!!! we had the greatest time!!!!! we are gonna miss ya!!!!!

The Pagano's

MY BEST FRIEND GERRY IS COMING !! WHOOOOHOOOO