My Heart Can't Take it

Okay, so now it's the 28th of January, and the adoption agency called me 2 days ago and told me that they should have her infor by the end of this week. Oh Boy!!! My heart is beating fast, my eyes are getting teary every so often, I'm going nutty people...To think that very soon Dante and I will be able to see pictures of our daughter...we feel so lucky, so happy, the feeling is out of this world!!!! To think , that right now in China there is a little Pagano.... You know for so long I felt sorry for myself, not being able to give birth to a another child was very difficult for us, we LOVE children, having loss 3 babies, I have to say that was the hardest thing Dante and I had ever gone through , and then being told that I could never get pregnant again, well that just about killed me... But I am a believer that my little Angels, our little babies, have guided Dante and I to our daughter...My beautiful babies will forever have a place in my heart.....they have played a very important role in my life...for they have brought me to you my Lianna Rose, now I understand, that some may not understand this....and thats okay, we all have our own beliefs....I just choose to believe that everything good or bad happens for a reason, and even though it sometimes does not make sense, in time it will. Lianna is very speacial to us....we will never take our children for granted, for we know what a gift they truly are....some say Lianna is a very lucky little girl, but Dante and I are truly the lucky ones....to have the honor, the privilege to raise this Angel, what an amazing gift....we are so greatful....

Carmen Pagano
AKA ( ONE LUCKY LADY )

One More Week

I can't believe it!!!! We may see a picture of our daughter this week!!!!

My Sweet Daughter

My sweet Daughter

My sweet little girl, how I wish you were here
but I realize that with every passing day, I am closer to you.
I dream of the day when you are put into my arms,
when I can feel your beautiful face
hear your little voice...

My sweet little girl , oh how I wish you knew
How much you are loved...
with every passing day my love for you grows,
with every passing day my heart breaks,
I wonder how you are, if you are being held when you cry
are you fed when you are hungry
are you comforted when you are sad.

My sweet little girl, how my heart cries for you
so much you have been through , in such little time
I cry for your birth mother, who will never know the life you will have
I cry for your birth mother, because I will never be able to say thank you
for such an amazing gift.
I cry for your birth mother, because she will never know the joy of having you in her life
I promise your birthmother that I will love you and cherish you enough for the both of us.
I promise your birthmother that I will never take you for granted.
I thank her and will thank her everyday of my life,

My sweet little girl, I soon will be there
My Sweet little Lianna Rose, mommy soon will be there
You have been in my heart for so long
you have been on my mind everyday
and soon you will be in my arms
How blessed I am for having you
My sweet little girl.

Love Your Mommy
carmen pagano

We are NEXT!!!!!

I can't believe it, its been 2 years from the time we began our journey to our Daughter Lianna Rose Pagano....and from what we are told , we should be receiving a photo along with some information on our baby girl..Dante and I can't wait for the day when we can lay our eyes on our beautiful daughter....I have often thought of that day, and now to think that within the next 3 weeks our dreams of seeing our daughter will come true...I just feel so lucky, so greatful, words could never express how I feel ....Our boys are also so happy to see their sister, I am so proud of our son's, they are so amazing....when Dante and I were thinking of adopting, we always thought, that if our boys did not feel comfortable with us doing this, we would not, Adopting a child had to be something that the whole family wanted. Ours sons from the very begining wanted a sister just as much as we wanted a daughter.....I am so happy that our boys are such loving, and giving human beings....but I must say that I am not at all surprised by them, what can I say , they are just great kids!

So her we are 2 years later, what a wonderful year 2007 is going to be....we hope that you all enjoy following us in the next few months....1st , we will get info on our baby along with a photo and some medical information, than, let the games begin! we will have to get more paper work done, finish getting shots for the trip : ( getting all document together, pack for the trip, wait for our Visas, and TA- Travel approval from China, purchase tickets, buy things that our Angel will need....so much still to do. What a journey this has been, it has been such a long road.....but you know what this journey will make us appreciate our daughter even more....she is so worth everything we have gone through.....we Love you Lianna Rose....

I also want to thank all of our friends and family for always being there for us....I have the most amazing friends...you have kept me going these past years...sometimes when I felt that I could no longer go on, you have kept me on my feet..you have been my stength...Lianna is so blessed to have all of you in her life....Dante and I are so lucky to have you all....so again Thank you so very much....we love you , appreciate you and cherish you so very much.

So hang on eveeryone!!!!
we are in for the ride of our lives....
Thank you for sharing in our journey

with much Love
Carmen, Dante
and Michael and Steven Pagano
And letsnot forget The Diva " Lianna"